Initially, I had planned on writing out a list of things that i am going to miss, and things i'll be glad to leave behind. I started typing, and i realized, whats the point? Why am i even pondering over it? Why am i giving up this quickly, this easily? Why am i becoming my mother? Its in my nature to do such, so strong that it makes me absolutely sick to even think about it. I want to stop being all those sickening things. Didn't i make this promise to myself once already? I suppose its a start that i'm slowly noticing my faults, and at least wanting to do something about them. Thats the purpose of this journal.

I am excited about...
... going to state for JCL
... finding a Prom dress
... going to Prom
... The next Friday thing i can go to
... being finished with speech
... figuring out if i want to get those boots i saw
... my baptism
... seeing the friends i haven't seen much of lately
... getting some goldfish after school
... graduation
... seeing the outcome of the things i have no control over
... the next time i get to go to work
... finding a book to read ( i need to start reading again)
... dancing. i feel like dancing.
... getting ahold of Miah again
... ending this entry.

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Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why?)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The out moment I trace around the one that I call mine
Time to count more space
And beware that your drew the line
I don't need you solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, By my side
I'll run away with you, By my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
(Asking why?)

Do I except you change, the past I hold inside?
With all the words I say
Repeating over in my mind
Some things you cant erase
No matter how hard you try
An exit to escape
Is all there is left to find

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?(Asking why)
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

So I,
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time to waste
Asking why?
I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside