Touching you makes me feel alive...

There are some days when its just harder to let go. This particular day, it was heart wrenching. Its the worst on those days when you already could barely will yourself to move; those days when you finally do manage to get up off the floor and the numbness fades away, and you can feel again, and you like what you feel, then just like that, its time to go back to feeling nothing. I don't want to be numb, but sometimes its just easier if you can't feel anything. When you're numb, you don't get angry or afraid. You don't FEEL, you just... are... And letting go of feeling safe and wanted, of feeling real, is almost too much to handle when i'm already so short on energy, so drained...

There are some days when its just harder to let go. Today,.,., was one of them.