Ahem.....

Sorry i've taken so long. My only excuse for the last 30 minutes is that evness visited me. For the last week... I"ve been busy? Sorry, its tough pulling Celena away from the computer. Yep. So, I'm a high school graduate. Now i can go out there and struggle to find a minimum wage job to afford a community college. I don't have to worry about that facet of life anymore, now i can only look back at all the things i wish i had done... yep. graduation was long and tedious but i caused a scene for everyone i knew, and my skirt didn't fall off once (i pinned it to the inside of my shirt mind you) Everyones going off getting ready to do something with thier lives, but me, i've got other things on my mind.

I watched a house burn to the ground last night. Contrary to.... contrary things, i did not find this to be cool or exciting by any long shot. I am shocked at how quickly the fire spread, and humbled by the simple fact that i couldn't change the events. We were at the end of the street when it happened. One of us saw smoke and when it became thicker, we started running. By the time we got to the house (maybe 8 houses away) the flames were sneaking in through the roof. Chad called 911. Levi got the neighbors out of thier houses. Michelle and I searched for the face that matched the screaming voice we heard. It was the little girl next door. I struggled for information on whether there was anyone left in the house. Would I have gone in after them? Maybe. By the time the fire department got there you knew there was no salvaging anything. They spent maybe two hours or so killing the fire, and it was the fastest and most destructive thing i have ever witnessed. I wanted to hug the woman who lived there. I've never seen a person look like they felt so guilty about something that they couldn't have controlled. No... I take that back. I can think of one other time. At the same time, i felt very angry watching all of this. It quickly became a story to tell, a media event and an inconvenience to the people around me rather than a disaster. It made me remember what kind of society we live in. Very raraly do people want to help others. Instead they search for recognition and reputation, thrusting themselves in front of news cameras and telling thier names and accounts for the whole world to witness. People complain about not being able to get where they need to go quickly while the person in front of you no longer has a place to go. THis is what our society has amounted to. A whole lot of nothing. Does humanity no longer believe in compassion? I believe they do, it just depends of the people you are looking at.

I guess what i'm getting at... maybe, if anything at all, is that other peoples lives do affect yours, but think about how you let it affect you. What are your reasons behind your thought process? Keep in mind that when someone elses pain becomes convenient or inconvenient for you, thats someones child, someones sister, someones best friend, someones parent. How do you want people to treat you and your loved ones in thier times of need? Treat others that way too.